YMonday, January 29, 2007
i say it so often i live for myself, and make decisions for myself and what others think will not influence me so easily and all. yet, i surprise myself at how different perspectives of others alter my thoughts so readily.
Especially from people who mean so much to me.
If only i could assure myself i knew exactly what i was doing, then maybe my thoughts wouldnt sway so easily. Its a pity i cant.
And things dont exactly get simplier when all odds turn on the subject and you're the only person to back things up, not for the concerned, but for yourself.
i totally understand where everyone's coming from, yet, its not exactly a " take it or leave it" situation for me either.
Or maybe i should take these negativities as a sign to back off, yet, who would know it better, other than myself? but then again, that question posed, if i knew it better i would have reacted with more certainty, instead of battling my views right here in this pathetic space. damn the irony.
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